Fatty Monday, I will see you in a few weeks

As you can see, I have been slacking on updating my blog with weight loss info (or much of anything) recently.  That is because my husband leaves soon, very soon and I will not see him again until (hopefully) November when he comes home on R&R for 15 days.  So I hope that can excuse me while I enjoy time with my husband instead of dieting.  I would say I should be back in full swing to update on March 14. 
So you might ask what I have been doing the last few weeks instead of counting every point and cooking every meal.  We have been going out too much, discovering just how delicious Greek yogurt really is, taking too many trips to Target and not enough to the gym, cuddling on the couch watching too much television, laughing while we play with Maggie, and enjoying  our last few weeks/days/hours we have left with each other. 
We have eaten at The Melting Pot, Applebee's (where the pork wanton tacos are too die for), Taco Bell, and Jersey Mike's.  We have drank more coffee than is healthy. 
And while doing this, I still make healthy choices.  Getting salad dressing on the side (and then never using it), snacking on carrots instead of cookies, and drinking water when sweet tea is sitting in the fridge.  I even weighed in at 164.5 pounds on Saturday morning on my scale at home.  But I also ate 3 doughnuts in 2 days and Olive Garden and drank sangria. 
But let me say goodbye to my husband, move to Florida, and settle in- then I will continue saying goodbye to my weight.  I will even get a free membership to the YMCA while I am in Florida.  So I will have no excuses.  NONE! 
So McFatty Monday, I will see you again in a few weeks.

Vacation and illness.

This was a tough week.  But a great week.

It all started on Saturday morning with last weeks weigh in.  It was then spent driving to Raleigh to spend my last weekend away with my husband and daughter.  I ate what I wanted, but made good decisions.  I ate an egg McMuffin, a wrap from Roly Poly, chicken and orzo, cheesecake, coffee, a sandwich on a pretzel, more coffee and Taco Bell.  It was a great weekend.  But I controlled my portions.  I ate healthy options (like no cheese on the wrap).

I then spent Monday and Tuesday working and working out, counting points, drinking water, being good.  And then I was hit, hard with a 24 hour stomach virus from hell.  I spent the better half of 24 hours in my bathroom.  I was so sick I called out of work but still sent my daughter to her babysitter.  In 36 hours I ate and digested about 1/2 cup of macaroni and cheese.  And on Thursday my appetite was not much better.  And Friday it was back in full force.  I did not track on Friday.  But I tried not to give into every temptation.

But after a bad week, I still lost weight.  I am not sure if it is artificial weight loss because of the stomach virus or if I lost weight.  I won't be surprised if I stay the same this next week.  But I am going to work out this week and I am going to track this week.  And I am going to drink water this week.  And I am going to be good this week.  Even with the box of girl scout cookies sitting out on my counter.

I currently weigh 166.8, down 6.2 pounds in these 3 weeks and 1.6 pounds just this week.

But I want to cover some questions that Blair from The Heir to Blair posed to her readers and participators this week in her McFatty Monday post.
Are you afraid of anything with weight loss?  With success?  With shedding old habits?  What do you think causes that fear?
And more importantly, what can we do to rise above it?


I am afraid of people hating me.  I am scared that people who are fighting the same fight with weight loss will hate me if I succeed or do "better" than they are.  I am afraid that if I give in to the unhappiness I feel now and embrace it as motivation, I will always be unhappy with how I look.  I am afraid that if I truly become healthy I will isolate my husband and I's relationship by taking away something we have in common (food).  I am afraid to lose weight and then gain it back.  I am afraid of becoming obsessed.  I am afraid that if I cut out things cold turkey that I will binge at some point or that I will become sensitive to foods I love.  (I am already becoming sensitive to sugar.)
I cause these fears.  I make myself crazy.  I make myself fearful because I put crazy ideas in my head.  There are no other excuses.
I just need to chill out and change my life, not diet.  I need to change my lifestyle and eat healthier.  I need to realize that I can enjoy food and still become healthier.  I need to make a routine and then it won't feel like pulling teeth.  It will feel like my life.  I NEED TO CHANGE MY LIFESTYLE!  And in turn I will change my life.

Family Weekends

Last weekend, Scott and I decided it was a good idea to take an impromptu trip to Raleigh.  This was going to be out last full weekend as a family before the upcoming deployment and we wanted to make the best of it.  So we researched things to do as a family in Raleigh, packed the car, and drove.  

We first went to Marbles Children's Museum and let Maggie just have fun.  It was great watching her run around and play with everything and interact with the other kids.  She had so much fun, especially playing in the area with all of the money (mainly because there were balls and puppies).  

Here are a few pictures...

First we stopped by the pirate ship and Maggie tried to jump ship.  She even walked the plank.

Then we went to the money area and they had balls all around.  She carried a bucket full of balls that was bigger than she was around the whole area. 

Maggie and Daddy then took a picture with a hundred dollar bill. 

And Mommy and Maggie stopped for a picture too. 

Here she is just playing and is having fun running away from Scott and I.

After Marbles we went to the Crabtree Mall and walked around trying to kill time before it was time to eat dinner and check into our hotel.  We bought Maggie some clothes for next winter at Crazy 8's.  These cute clothes include pink cords and a red and black plaid peacoat.  And Maggie got cranky and so we went to our hotel.  

After our nap we back to Crabtree and were going to order Cheesecake Factory to go because they had about an 18 day long wait for seating, but Maggie threw up on us while we were waiting and we couldn't find anyone to take a to go order.  So we walked to an italian restaurant called Bistros and ordered food from there.  While waiting for our food, we went to Belk, where I found a $160 Ralph Lauren skirt for $40 in a size 8 that FIT!!!  Our food was enjoyed in the comfort of our hotel room and it was delicious!!!  Probably the best food I have ever had, or very close to it.  

Sunday, we hit up the Fox and the Hound near the Renaissance, where we saw a bunch of hockey players (because the AllStar game was taking place in Raleigh the same weekend), and let Maggie run around.  

And then we came home.  

I will miss Scott while he is gone, but I will always cherish the memories we made that weekend.